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Saturday, January 28, 2006
::~LonG timE nO bLoG~::
hmmm.. quite a number of daes didn't blog le.. been playing vball these daes.. n without fail injuring myself.. haiz~~ (->_<-) been at hiS hOusE too.. well basically its sChOoL, vball n hiS hOusE bahz.. been stressed up with stuff these daes.. thinking lotz.. well sometimes its always betta to tolerate bahz.. keeping things to myself is oso tiring.. so i'm glad i have my close pals with mi wen i face these problems.. listenng to mi wen i blabble out all wad i'm thinking to them.. hmmm.. thanx a bunch peepz.. will remember wad u peepz told mi de.. =)
tml is chinese new year le.. going to gRanDma's hOusE to bai nian.. hehez.. hong baos~~~!! bleahz.. =P now i'm still at hiS hOusE.. going to giNza later den i'll b going hOme for my tuan nian fan le.. yummyz!! daddy cook worz.. hope everything goes well todae bahz.. tat's all.. will blog again soon..
..::..aLwaYs-iN-LovE-witH-yOu..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
::~a pRomisE..~::
hmmm.. blogging in my sChOoL com lab again.. so bored.. nth to do again.. later going for my vball training.. so long nv play le.. but my muscles r all aching from yesterdae's nafa test.. omg.. so pain sia.. but i tink my nafa will turn out quite well bahz.. a silver i guess.. hehez..
haiz~~ yesterdae quarrel again.. everytime quarrel i keep mentioning the thing tat i shouldn't mention.. haiz.. 5th time le.. i'm sorry... i didn't mean it.. like wad we've said yesterdae, we will start everything afresh.. i will keep my promise de.. i will try my best to b more observant too.. i shouldn't take my precious for granted at all.. i mus learn to treasure n trust him..
after wad happened, i mus grow up!!! its important.. been chionging bleach.. finally chiong until number 48 le.. its so nice now.. so exciting.. lotz of different things has happened.. all the links.. wanna watch more tonight.... but i tink later going out with my frend to walk walk n shop shop around.. hope wun spend too much bahz.. tat's all abt it.. tataz.. =)
..::..i-miSs-yOu-Lotz..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Sunday, January 22, 2006
::~bLeaCh~::
hehez.. blogging againz.. yesterdae went to OnE to club.. hmmm.. RnB nite worz.. n free entrance some more.. went with sharon, andy n gordon they all.. soooo long nv c them le.. drank quite a bit oso.. hahaz.. shall club with them often.. asked hubby to go with mi.. in the end i left him alone.. sooooo guilty sia.. after tat bought food food back to hUbBy's hOusE to eat.. todae slept until super late lorz.. veri tired mahz.. actually going sEntOsa to get myself tanned de.. in the end the trip was cancelled cos not much pple.. nvm bahz.. will have next time de.. realli wanna go sEntOsa sia.. haiz~~ apple.. hmmm.. we shall go next time ya.. =) spent the whole dae watching bleach... hehehehez..... soooooo happy sia.. finally watch until episode 35 le.. i noe i'm still slow.. but at least got some process le.. gonna chiong bleach le.. love it so much.. hehez.. all thanx to hubby.. if not wun b able to watch le.. muackz.. alriteyz.. ending here.. tataz. -)
..::..LovE-ya-LovE-yA-LovE-ya..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
..::..LovE-ya-LovE-yA-LovE-ya..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Saturday, January 21, 2006
::~cLuBbinG??~::
hmmm.. so bored now.. nth to do.. hubby is taking his nap.. later both of us will b going out with our own frends.. did i mention i saw sharon yesterdae.. hehez.. long time no c le.. miss her so much.. she asked mi to club todae.. hmmm.. most prob will b going bahz.. but dunnoe where yet.. LiqUiD rOoM, onE or mOmO lehz.. hmmmm..... dunoe lahz.. up to them to decide bahz.. jus hope everything goes well wen i club todae.. esp touchy pple.. *yuckz~~* hahahaz.. tat's abt it.. later going hOme to change den meeting my frends in tOwn le lorz.. will blog again soon.. tataz.. =)
..::..gOnNa-misS-yOu-LikE-cRazY-LatEr..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Friday, January 20, 2006
::~dEpResSinG~::
hmmm.. blogging at hUbBy's hOusE again.. nth special happened todae.. early morning quarrel with mama n papa again.. i jus dun understand y.. find fault with mi.. haiz~ den in the end i was late for my AOF lesson todae.. got marketing CA todae oso.. in the end reached sChOoL a couple of minutes before the test starts.. no time for mi to rest n read through.. all who's fault.. haiz~~ suan le.. the paper wasn't hard if i got the time to read through my notes again.. guess i'm gonna fail tis paper bahz.. no choice oso le lorz.. work harder during my final paper n project bahz.. (->_<-)
after my paper todae called apple.. hehez.. woke her up to pei mi eat my breakfast.. sori ger.. n thanx for accompanying mi.. i needed it.. =) my chicken roce todae nv open so ate cai fan lorz.. a little sad though.. nan de i go there early jus to eat it lorz.. after took train all the way the taMpiNesS to meet hubby.. den go his his house after tat le lorz.. slept for quite long todae oso.. piggy le lahz.. hahaz.. now my mood is much betta le.. all thanx to hubby.. muackz~~ tat's all for todae.. byez~ =D
..::..aLwaYs-oN-mY-minD..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
after my paper todae called apple.. hehez.. woke her up to pei mi eat my breakfast.. sori ger.. n thanx for accompanying mi.. i needed it.. =) my chicken roce todae nv open so ate cai fan lorz.. a little sad though.. nan de i go there early jus to eat it lorz.. after took train all the way the taMpiNesS to meet hubby.. den go his his house after tat le lorz.. slept for quite long todae oso.. piggy le lahz.. hahaz.. now my mood is much betta le.. all thanx to hubby.. muackz~~ tat's all for todae.. byez~ =D
..::..aLwaYs-oN-mY-minD..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
::~pOoR thinG~::
hmmm.. blogging at hUbBy's hOusE againz.. haiz.. my poor hubby is sick.. yesterdae went over to pei him.. haiz~~ can't help much.. felt soooo mei yong sia.. onli can look at him silently.. c him yesterdae like so xing ku lidat.. my heart oso pain pain lorz.. (->_<-)
didn't go to sChOoL todae cos woke up with a headache.. haiz~ getting more n more lazy le.. cannot arz.. geez~~ tml guess i'll go to sChOoL alone bahz.. c how first..
later actually going for vball de.. but last minute got something on.. so not going le.. gonna go find my ger pals later.. they r always there for mi wen i'm having moody swings.. so now i oso mus go pei them.. tat's abt all for todae.. luckily hubby is feeling betta now le... muackz~~ bye-byez~~ =D
..::..yOng-yUaN-ai-zE-ni..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
didn't go to sChOoL todae cos woke up with a headache.. haiz~ getting more n more lazy le.. cannot arz.. geez~~ tml guess i'll go to sChOoL alone bahz.. c how first..
later actually going for vball de.. but last minute got something on.. so not going le.. gonna go find my ger pals later.. they r always there for mi wen i'm having moody swings.. so now i oso mus go pei them.. tat's abt all for todae.. luckily hubby is feeling betta now le... muackz~~ bye-byez~~ =D
..::..yOng-yUaN-ai-zE-ni..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
::~baCk tO nOrmaL caN?~::
hmmm.. now blogging in sChOoL.. nothing to do during lesson mahz.. so bored now.. how i wish lesson can end now.. waste my time onli.. yawnz~~ =x i wanna go back now sia.. hubby is not feeling well.. haiz~~ my poor huby.. (->_<-)
yesterdae had a little quarrel with him again.. haiz~~ so sad sia.. i shouldn't behave tat way.. i shouldn't let u have the feeling like i dun need u ani more.. i need u more than ani body.. i shouldn't make u feel disappointed.. shouldn't hurt you n make u sad all the time.. i tink i'm the one who is useless.. always saying the wrong things thus creating all the unnecessary problems between us.. causing the gap.. i WILL now work hard to have everything back to normal again.. i will not do ani more things to make u feel tat way le.. i love ya lotz.. n will nv leave u de.. n i hope u will do the same to mi too okz.. i dun wanna b alone again...........
yestedae didn't go to sChOoL cos got medical checkup.. stupid lorz.. got 2 appointment timings due to some reasons.. after tat went to tOwn n pEopLe's paRk OG with my mama to walk walk n shop shop for my new year clothes.. i bought another 2 more tops yesterdae.. hehez.. a pair of heels from U R S.. i like them lotz.. finally a pair of heels after so long.. mus b more lady now.. hehez~~ n i shall announce.. i finally own a pair of Levis jeans n skirt le.. omg.... they r soooooo damn ex lorz.. but i like them.. i wan to slim down a little so tat i can fit the jeans betta.. look nicer mahz.. =) so from now on, not gonna eat le.. dun care wad the doc sae.. bleahz~~ =P i put in so much effort to get the jeans lorz.. actually wanted to buy it at pEopLe's paRk OG de.. but they dun have the size i wanted.. but luckily tOwn de have.. so reserve it n went to tOwn again to get it.. hubby accompanied mi to collect my jeans at tOwn cos mama got some other stuff on den i'm alone.. take jeans le den i got some rebate voucher thingy.. so went walk walk to c how to spend it.. in the end, we bought biscuits.. buy until $20 lorz.. so have to top up more money.. but hubby paid for mi.. muackz~ my share of biscuits got alot lorz.. hehez.. after tat went to ciNeLeisuRe to turn the hello kitty thing i like.. veri cute lorz.. =) den went hOme le.. hubby pei mi take train to raFfLes before taking train back himself.. hubby... xie xie ni pei wo.. wo zhi dao ni du shu le hen lei.. dan shi ni hai shi xuan ze pei wo.. xie xie oh.. wo ai ni.. muackz~~~ (^-^) tat's all.. byez~~ =D
..::..i-LovE-yOu-n-wiLL-nEveR-Let-yOu-gO..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Monday, January 16, 2006
::~mEaninGiNgLesS~::
sometimes i simply dun understand.. dun understand everything abt myself.. i'm jealous.. n i dunnoe y.. stupid.. from now on, i dun wanna bother ani more.. have means have.. dun have means dun have.. doesn't matter.. dun care is the best.. at least i wun feel like as if i'm in a mess now.. i shall now live life like i used to have..
hmmm.. next weekend should b clubbing bahz.. clubbing to mi now means = 3 NOs.. no fun, no flirting n no flings.. hahahahaz.. doesn't matter though.. tml still got stupid marketing progress test.. argh~~ tataz~~
..::..waD-iS-aLL-tHesE-sOur-fEeLinG?..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Sunday, January 15, 2006
::~sOnGs~::
hehez.. putting up lyrics of the song i like.. =D
Just Because of You by Us5
Just Because of You,I´m crying in sadness
Just because of us, I feel like I come dying
So I´m beggin you, wantin you, callin you
I never believed our love would die,
It’s funny how time just passed us by
I couldn’t imagine you were out my life
And all of the girls that I once knew,
They all disappeared when I met you
You’re all that I ever wanted in my life
I’ll find a way to make you stay, I still believe in our love
I see the truth, because of you, the key to understand love
Just because of you, I’m cryin in sadness
I'll give you one more try, and I’ll do the same
Just because of us, I feel like I come dyin
So I’m beggin you, wantin you, callin you
I never believed a man should cry,
Until you got up, and said goodbye
I pray for the day, you come back in my life
I’d do anything to make this right
If only I had you by my side
Thinking about you baby day and night
I’ll find a way to make you stay, I still believe in our love
I see the truth, because of you, the key to understand love
Just because of you, I’m cryin in sadness
Give it one more try, and I’ll do the same
Just because of us, I feel like I come dyin
So I’m beggin you, wantin you, callin you
Just because of you
Just because of us
Just because of you, I’m cryin in sadness
Give it one more try, and I’ll do the same
Just because of us, I feel like I’m dyin
So I’m beggin you, wantin you, callin you
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Saturday, January 14, 2006
::~waD m i dOiNg~::
haiz~~ been crying lotz yesterdae nite.. cos quarrel with my daddy again.. for no reason find fault with mi againz~~ sadz~~ worst still.. my phone got prob lorz.. stupid starhub.. idiot.. pple cannot call mi n sms mi.. can't receive anithing.. wtf sia.. call the bloody customer service nobody bothers.. wad is tis type of service man.. omg~~ starhub sucks lorz.. gonna change my line back to other subcribers le.. simply dislike starhub now lorz.. now finally my phone is alrite le.. but i'm still not satisfied.. hmphz~~
my mood was so foul yesterdae.. vented my stupid anger on my hubby.. i said things tat made him sad n hurt again.. i realli didn't mean to sae those things de.. i noe its the 4th time i said something tat u dun wanna hear.. hurting u again n again.. i'm oso hurting myself wen i said those things yesterdae.. i'm crying everytime i sae them.. wad u told mi yesterdae was so touching.. haiz~~ i jus dun understand y do i keep hurting u.. i'm simply not good enough.. not a good ger.. i noe u dun wanna hear mi sae these 3 words again.. but i still wan.. i'm realli sorry..... i realli dun wanna lose u to ani body.. i noe i'm jus kou shi xin fei.. (->_<-)
can somebody jus tell mi wad to do?? i'm losing myself le.. i'm giving up on myself soon... i realli dunnoe wad else to do... how i wish i can do stupid things to numb myself again.. but i can't break my promise.. i jus dun wanna b left alone.. i realli feel veri devastated... lost.. n confused...... who can bring mi out from my bouvalard of my broken dreams again...............
..::..dUn-waNna0-LosE-yOu-aT-aLL..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
::~3rD mOntH~::
hmmm.. tons of different things happened lately.. nowadaes mi n him had a couple of arguements.. so sad sia.. haiz~~ i noe i haven been realli understanding towards him lately.. hurting him deeply.. haiz~ i'm realli guilty.. i realli didn't mean it at all.. mayb its bcos i keep assuming things n sae things out without thinking first.. i jus wanna sae sorry to my hubby..
yesterdae was our 3rd month le.. before going out, we had an arguement again.. tis time is over whether to go out or not to go out.. stupid rite.. haiz.. in the end, i throw my temper at him again.. geez~ i'm so sorry again.. in the end hubby agreed to pei mi go buy my stuff.. thanx hubby.. muackz~ walked at pLaza siNgapUra trying to get my perfume.. in the end got no stock.. so they reserve the last bottle fo mi at cEnteR pOiNt.. so walked over there lorz.. cos hubby parked his car at pLaza siNgapUra mahz.. drive over a little bit weird.. finally i got my perfume now le.. hehez~~ at first the atmosphere still a little weird.. but everything improved wen we were eating.. hehez~~ den went over to hUbBy's hOusE.. helped hubby with his CDP job kit.. =) hope hubby can get good marks for it.. slept soooo late.. now super tired.. (->_<-)
here i m in my marketing class.. sooooo boring arz.. i left my phone at hUbBy's hOusE.. sianz~ no music to listen in my train ride.. n no game to play.. i wanna play the lemonade game hubby sent mi.. not bad.. quite fun.. luckily got hubby's comics to keep mi company.. the vball comic damn nice lorz.. so addicted to it now.. den at first i still thot i lost the neo-print mi n hubby took.. the pic tat i love most.. but guess wad.. i found it inside my paperbag.. so lucky sia.. xD i reached sChOoL on time again todae.. my eyes closing le.. gonna rest a bit now.. tataz~ =D
..::..haPpY-3rD-mOntH-mOntHsaRy..::..
..::..i-LovE-ya-Lotz..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Saturday, January 07, 2006
::~cHaNcE~::
hmmm.. been crying lotz yesterdae.. haiz~~ some stuff happened again.. n tis time i'm mainly at fault.. dun wanna talk much abt it though.. i onli noe i hurt my precious hubby again.. i'm so sorry.. i didn'e noe u were waiting the whole dae yesterdae for mi to take the initiative to look for you.. hurting u is the last thing i ever wanted.. i'm realli sorry.. no more such thing will happen again okz..~~ sorted things out yesterdae.. now things should mi fine le.. thanx for giving mi the chance again to learn how to trust.. i will now give u my trust.. tis i promise okz.. after everything, went to eat prata.. tried the boom prata.. yummyz~ hehez~~ muackz hubby.. slept until veri late todae.. 7pm worz.. hahaz.. tat's all for the dae.. going to eat our breakfast cum lunch cum dinner le.. tataz~~ (^-^)
..::..nEvEr-to-hUrt-yOu-aGaiN..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
::~KiNg kOng~::
hehez.. jus reached hUbBy's hOusE from jUnctiOn 8.. finally watched king kong le.. was soooooooo nice.. i cried lotz sia.. hahaz.. can't help it mahz.. too touching le.. todae had a small arguement with hubby.. over some stupid sms thingy.. haiz.. sori hubby.. didn't mean to accuse u de.. sori sori.. (->_->)
met up with my daughter ade todae.. went over to bisHaN itE to meet zhi wei for dinner.. chatted with ade quite a bit.. hehez~ in the end, lots of us had dinner together.. mi, hubby, zhi wei, ade, albert, tiff, alan n someone i'm not sure of the name.. oppz~ =P
hmmm.. yeaterdae hubby brought mi to a place tat i've always wanted to go.. iCe-3.. its near cHomP chOmp.. hehez.. its a ice-cream bar/cafe.. hubby had a cookies n irish cream ice-cream while i had a chocolate aphrodisiac ice-cream.. yummyz~~ its ice-cream mixed with alcohol.. veri special n nice.. n somemore the names of the ice-cream all like so chim lidat.. so classy.. hahaz.. =P we had calamari rings too.. heez~~ muackz hubby.. after tat, hubby brought mi to mOuNt faBeR to walk walk.. didn't go there before so was rather fresh to mi lorz.. jus wanna thank hubby for making my 19th birthdae a memorable one.. i realli appreciate it lotz.. love ya many many.. (^-^)
todae sChOoL started le.. was soooooo damn boring.. my marketting teacher change le.. omg~ she dunnoe how to teach de lorz.. so boring.. i almost dozed off arz.. argh!!~~ class is still the same.. boring boring boring.. hope tml will b betta bahz.. so sianz.. tml nite havta chiong my CDP job kit le.. thursdae mus hand in if i'm not wrong.. haiz~ stress arz~ save mi bahz.. dying le lahz.. tat's all... gotta go bed le.. tml waking up early.. niteyz.. tataz~~ =)
..::..i'M-sOrRy..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Monday, January 02, 2006
::~mY 19tH biRtHdaE..~::
hmmm.. its my 19th birthdae today.. i'm 19 le.. mus grow up liaoz.. cannot b naive n childish animore.. oso dun wanna tink so much.. jus wanna have a nice birthdae.. tonight will b having family dinner with hubby's family.. first time birthdae have dinner with boifrend's family sia.. hahahahaz.. =D
tml sChOoL is starting le.. hope everything goes well bahz.. will blog again tonite i guess.. =)
..::..LeaRniNg-tO-tRuSt..::..
*+~haPpY 19tH biRtHdaE tO mYseLf!!~+*
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Sunday, January 01, 2006
::~m i tHiNkiNg tOo mUcH??~::
haiz.. sometimes i realli do wonder m i thinking too much.. wad for i tink so much.. haiz~~ suan le.. no point aniwae.. guess i wun b enjoying my bdae tis year bahz.. dunnoe y do i have such a feeling.. i still prefer my 18th birthdae last year.. more fun though.. hmmm.. lets c wad will happen tml bahz..
haiz.. i simply hate pple who lie to mi.. jus tell mi the truth bahz.. haiz~~~ nvm.. jus stating how i feel.. nth much oso.. jus wanna thank frank n jason n douglous for the present n the "effort".. realli appreciate it lotz.. n oso thanx a bunch samantha.. for the strawberry mat/carpet n earrings.. i recieve quite a number of earring this time round sia.. hahahahaz.. thanx guys.. tat's all.. tataz~~ =)
..::..waD-iS-tRuSt..::..
*+~cOuNt-dOwN tO mY biRtHdaE: 1 1/2 hOuR.. (^-^)~+*
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
::~haPpY nEw yEaR 2006~::
hehez.. went to celebrate my 19th birthdae together with jamie, shu yi, hubby, lene, samantha, aloy n shaq.. had fun at maRina sOuth.. steamboat mahz.. hahaz.. played with the prawns.. =P
after steamboat, went to the arcade to play play.. after tat, went over to eaSt cOast paRk to have out some sort of a mini count-down.. its 2006 le.. a new year, new beginning.. hehez.. lots of things tat i need to improve on.. jia you bahz.. =)
now at hUbBy's hOusE.. gonna stay on for a couple of daes.. till sChOoL reopens.. tat's abt it.. gonna sleep le.. yawnz~ (^-^) btw, happy new year pple.. have fun n enjoy.. =D
..::..LovE-ya-Lotz..::..
*+~cOuNt-dOwN tO mY biRtHdaE: 1 daE.. =D~+*
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz