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Tuesday, April 25, 2006
::~teLL mi waD tO dO..~::
jus reached hUbBy's hOusE from tOwn.. went to eat chicken rice at faR eaSt jus now with hubby.. went to the arcade.. den hubby caught so many cute disney toys for mi.. kekez.. i'm so happy tat time.. although we dun have the time to catch a movie.. spent so much time in the arcade.. den walked around at pLaza siNgapUra den to hEeReN.. was a little disappointed.. so many shops close le.. haiz~~ took train back after tat.. i realli wonder wen mi n hubby will have such outings again.. sadz~~ some photos of the dae..
ouR tOopiD faCes.. =P
waD is tHis expRessiOn... xD
thE cUtE diSnEy tOys hUbbY caUgHt fOr mi.. =)
i'm lost.. can anibody tell mi wad to do........ my mind is filled with so many things rite now.. y mus all these happen.. i jus wan a normal life.. a normal relationship.. a loving one.. is this too much to ask for.. i love him so much n i dun wanna leave him at all.. but can we realli solve our time restrictions problems.. i realli hope we can lorz.. can i stay the same like last time.. will we treasure each other more.. will u keep ur promises to mi.. can u somehow jus assure mi.. my dear...
gonna go rest a little n c wad else i can do le.. perhaps try looking for solutions..... going for an interview tml.. i hope everything goes well.. i wanna get tat job.. the kind of job i wan.. at least it can help mi pass my time.. pple got ani good lobangs can intro mi.....
..::..caN-yOu-asSurE-mE..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Monday, April 24, 2006
::~haNginG...~::
haiz~~ kind of depressed rite now.. looks like everybody around mi has got something planned.. either working, continue to school etc etc.. haiz.. i'm like left in the middle.. with nth planned... i dunnoe wad to do.. wanna work but i dun realli have the mood to do so.. wanna continue with my studies.. but no school wans mi.. wanna go overseas.. so many odds against mi.. private... haiz~~ i dun believe in tat.. i would rather go overseas.. wad should i do.. i felt so stupid.. pathetic results.. miserable life.. nth is going smoothly for mi.. why r all these happening.. i realli hope things can take a turn for the betta.. should i jus let go of everything n proceed on for further studies overseas..... i'm realli lost.. confused of wad i should do.. i jus dun wanna leave him.. but i'm jus so insecure... i'm tired of this feeling.. should i carry on with it.. can somebody provide mi with the answer to everything.. he's gonna start his new cycle of life.. he's gonna make new frends.. will he forget all abt mi.. r we realli going to have lesser n lesser time for each other.. will u still tink of mi wen u r doing ur stuff..... haiz~~ i'm stopping here.. the more i blog the more i'm getting depressed..........
..::..i-rEaLLi-dO-LovE-yOu..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Saturday, April 22, 2006
::~waD sHouLd i dO....??~::
haiz.... i'm so lost n confused rite now.. wad should i do.. so many things i've been planning till now.. all would b gone.. once i chose to give the answer tat i dun wanna give.. my heart is so painful now.. again n again.. y does such things keep happening.. hurt again n again.. i forgave again n again too.. wad else can i do.. its all bcos of 3 simple words.. haiz.. i realli dunnoe wad should i do....... haiz......
i hate my results so much.. y mus all the bad things happen to mi.. i didn't do anithing to harm anibody wad........ why.. why.. why..... so many questions n i have no answers to them.....
..::..caN-sOmEbOdY-givE-mi-waD-i-rEaLLi-nEeD..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Friday, April 21, 2006
::~fRustRatEd daEs..~::
haiz.. been so frustrated nowadaes.. n i finally noe the true reason behind it.. haiz~~ i have been venting my anger n frustrations on the pple closes to mi.. even pple whom i'm slightly unhappy with, i'll lose my temper to them.. as if the whole world owes mi lidat.. i'm jus so rush in doing things.. do things without thinking.. yesterdae at KaKi, i lose my temper to all the guys.. although i'm onli unhappy to one of them.. i dun wanna sae the name here.. tat name suckz... jus bcos of one person, the rest r being dragged into the whole matter.. haiz~~ i'm realli sorry.. i didn't mean it at all.. i'll apologise to them tml if i'm going down to KaKi..
as for todae... i vented my anger n frustrations on who.. apple, jamie n my dearest hubby.. haiz~~ for no reason at all.. apple finally made mi sae out wad's in my heart all these daes.. i croed out.. n now.. i'm so much betta le..
this is a rather simple entry.. i jus wanna thank these pple.. my 2 best-est frends n my dearest hubby.. thanks for standing by my side.. u guys did not give up on mi n left mi all alone wen i needed u.. putting up with al sorts of rubbish i gave.. tolerating all the stupid temper i gave.. i'm realli sori for hurting u guys with my words.. harsh words.. i realli dun wanna sae them.. i noe u guys understand.. i'm realli grateful to have u guys by my side.. its realli a blessing.. realli thanks a bunch.. i realli do teeasure u pple.. jamie n apple, u gers will b my best-est frends ever.. n u my hubby.. will oso b the person i love most.. without u i dunnoe wad will become of mi..
well.. waiting for my hubby to finish bathing.. den check results together.. i hope i'll get good grades.. *pray*.. i ate lotz of prata todae.. yummyz~~ gonna b fat soon.. arghh~~ =P hmmm.. tat's all for the dae.. tataz~~
..::..jUs-a-simpLe-wOrd-tHaNks..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
::~siCk n tirEd oF evErythiNg~::
arghhhh... i feel like killing myself.. i'm so sick n tired of everything.. y mus everything happen in my pathetic life.. i feel so miserable.. i'm simply sick of everything around mi now.. b it my family, my frends, my surroundings.. wadever.. anibody or anithing.. i'm losing interest.. i'm having doubts in everything.. n worst.. i'm starting to doubt if there is realli somebody who realli cared for mi.. for example.. i haven eat anithing since i woke up.. pple jus rushed mi to bring food for other pple.. pple who mistreated them in the past.. wad abt mi.. pple sick i oso sick wad.. i'm oso having gastric wad.. pple need to eat i dun need mehz.. wad is all these.. i seemed to b creating lotz of trouble for everyone.. i'm like a burden.. to my family. to my frends.. to my bf.. arghhh!! does anibody realli care for mi with their heart.. i realli dunnoe.. my heart is so empty.. so lost n confused rite now.. i tried my best in everything.. in the end.. who appreciates mi.. NONE!!! i'm simply good for nothing.. why m i alive in this world.. should have jus die wen i'm young.. or mayb later cross the road got a car suddenly bang mi to death.. mayb lidat den will have pple care for mi.. i'm feeling so damn insecure.. who can secure mi.. or should i jus treat pple the way the treat mi.. lidat betta rite.. let them feel how i felt.. i'm in the worst mood ever in my life rite now.. i dunnoe wad i'll do.. i feel like drnking.. drink until i'm drunk.. den i wun feel anithing.. i feel like killing myself.. lidat i wun b a burden to pple.. wad should i do.. i'm useless... tell mi tell mi tell mi.. i jus wanna b happy tat's all.. y is there so many things obstructing mi.. izzit everyody wan mi to disappear..... haiz~~~
gonna go get ready.. going to the miserable KaKi for vball later.. how i wish i'll jus die on the way........
..::..hOw-cOuLd-tHis-haPpenEd-tO-mi..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
::~haO Lei aRz..~::
arghhhh.... i'm sooooooooo tired rite now.. woke up early cos hubby going swimming so i gotta go hOme.. n at the very moment i stepped into my house, my mama made mi leave again.. go where.. SGH lorz.. where else.. visit my xiao gu.. visit finish rush back hOme to get ready den went to sChOoL for vball training.. so long nv go back le.. so tired now.. thighs so pain now.. i'm damn hungry after training lorz.. wad to do.. ate so little for my brunch.. i'm so ke lian.. kenna treated like a maid.. haiz~~ y pple like to take mi for granted.. sadz~~ =( alrite lahz.. tat's all for the dae.. gonna get hubby up.. den bathe le i'll sleep.. cos tml still got vball..... hope my leggies r strong enough for mi.. tataz~~ =)
..::..u-R-thE-swEetEst-tO-mi..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Monday, April 17, 2006
::~siaNzatiOn..~::
haiz~ quarrel with mama again.. so sianz rite now.. nth interest mi.. blogging at hUbBy's hOuse.. listening to songs.. i'm so freaking vex rite now.. dunnoe wad to do.. wad will bring a smile to my face again..??.. its realli been such a long time since i last smiled.. or even laugh with real laughter.. been filled with tons of tears.. wad can i do.. i'm useless okz.. onli noe how to tink n cry.. argh.. i jus hate myself so much.. the thot of hurting myself is back again.. haiz~~ i'm so afraid i'll do tat.. hope i'm strong enough..
btw, i changed my blogskin le.. i kind of find it cute.. n colourful too.. changed the song too.. i did it quite fast though.. first time.. i usually spend lotz of time doing blogskins de.. its a simple skin though.. but i like it.. hope i'll stick to it for long bahz.. =)
will b going for a movie with hubby later.. jus wanna go walk walk.. might feel a little betta.. later will b watching black night at ciNeLeisure.. where else has got late movies except for there.. its a horror movie.. jus hope my heart is stong enough for tat.. 3 horror movies combine in one lehz.. got hong kong, thailand n japan de lorz.. (->.<-) i watched eight below oso le.. quite nice.. quite touching.. dog lovers should watch.. the dogs all so cute.. =)
gotta go book tics n get ready le.. dun wanna miss the movie.. shall blog again..
..::..waD-m-i-gOinG-to-do..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Sunday, April 16, 2006
::~...->.<-....~::
hmmm... wad a dae todae... guess wad.. i'm blogging at dEsmOnd's hOusE again.. for wad..??.. MAHJONG!!!! hahaz.. like nth to do lidat horz.. everytime mahjong..
went sEntOsa todae.. late again.. sadz~~ had quarrels again.. more sadz~~ but i do hope everything is alrite real soon.. as usual played vball there.. played a while onli lorz.. den the sun decided to hide away n all the dark clouds came.. n it rained!!! omg.. damn heavy lorz.. haiz~~ went to bathe soon after tat.. took quite some photos.. but i'm jus too lazy to upload.. shall do so wen i'm free bahz.. =P
went to pLaza sinGapUra after tat.. ate yoshi with hubby.. played arcade as well.. hubby tried to win the MP3 player for mi.. missed by a bit onli lorz.. wasted.. nvm hubby.. shall play again.. we'll have betta luck.. muackz~ after walking a little more, arcade again den off we came to dEsmOnd's hOusE le..
okz lahz.. tat's all for the dae.. gonna go c my dear hubby play mahjong.. hope can win many many.. kekez.. xD hubby jia you orh.. muackz~~ =) btw, did i mention i had my hair cut already.. i quite like it.. onli if i style it.. haiz~~ troublesome hair.. alriteyz.. tataz~~ =D
..::..wO-zHi-xiaNg-ai-Ni-100%..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Saturday, April 15, 2006
::~waD a daE...~::
hmmm.. here m i at dEsmonD's hOusE at tis type of hour.. for mahjong.. hahaz.. hmmm.. i'm not playing though.. too lousy le.. haiz~~ shall brush up my skills.. who can teach mi.. hahaz.. =)
these few daes spent my daes normally.. nothing special.. spent my 6th monthsary with hubby on monday.. he bought mi the watch i wanted sooooo much... its like so ex lorz.. i love it soooooo much.. no wonder hubby said tat dae he did everything jus for mi.. =) muackz hubby.. i'll treasure it for sure.. although i ket saying i wanna return it to u or change it back to money to return u.. tat's my precious watch.. ^-^
well after tat dae, had some quarrels n arguements here n there.. tears again.. haiz~~ yesterdae i said something so bad tat i hurt him.. haiz~~ though he's tired, he still came to fetch mi for supper.. had my favourite prata at tOmsOn there.. yummyz~
todae lehz.. hmmm.. i almost lost him.. realli almost.. hope it wun happen again.. went to KaKi for vball.. i'm injured again.. haiz~~ =( i'm so useless.... after tat took bus back to hUbBy's hOusE.. i'm so fed up.. luckily he talk to mi.. after tat bathe.. den off to mum mum le.. kekez.. the bee hoon so damn ex.. still sae it economic bee hoon.. yuckz.. but its quite nice lahz.. =P after eating came for mahjong session le.. tml gonna wake up damn early.. going bUkit gOmbaK for some camp instructor briefing thingy.. hubby will b driving mi over.. lucky for tat.. hope i'll b able to wake u bahz.. after tat briefing, will b going to jason's 21st birthday celebration.. will b damn tired after everything tml bahz.. i wanna club so much.. looking forward to my next clubbing session.. kekez.. =) i'll b fully booked for the week.. hahaz.. living life to the fullest.. tat's all for the dae.. tataz~~ =D
..::..dOn't-waNna-LosE-yOu..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz
Monday, April 10, 2006
::~6tH mOntH~::
geez.. been a long time ever since i last blogged.. 10 daes ago i guess.. my blog mus b full of cobwebs by now.. well, shall update a little.. nth much interesting happened nowadaes.. been going out.. spending money.. kind of broke now.. hmmm.. i guess i'm gonna keep myself occupied already.. like going driving.. looking for a decent job.. hahaz.. i hope to find something i like... cos at the rate i'm having supper n the amount i've been sleeping, i'll b FAT in no time.. n i dun wan...!!!! well.. another tears-filled week for mi.. cried so much again.. haiz~~ such a cry baby.. hmmm.. todae's entry is not abt sad stuff.. its our 6th monthsary todae le.. sae long not long sae short oso not short.. been through so much things.. we knew each other for such a short period of time.. n tadaz.. we r together for 6 mths le.. hmmm.. i realli do hope we'll have lotz of fun later.. although we have limited $$.. kekez.. happy can le mahz.. hahaz.. i haven got the stuff i wanted to get for hubby.. i onli had half of it done.. hope my dear hubby will like it.. going for my hair cut later.. my hair looks like grass now.. can't stand.. hmmm.. should i dye my hair??... should i perm it??.. or should i reborn it??.. omg.. i'm lost.. =X gonna go get ready now le.. appointment at 3pm.. haiz.. confirm late de.. will update again soon.. tataz~~ =)
..::..i-pRomisE-i'LL-bE-bY-uR-sidE-aLwaYs-yOu-n-i..::..
..::..haPpY-6tH-mOntHsaRy..::..
pOstEd bY sHaN-sHanz