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Tuesday, January 13, 2009
..fOr thE paSt tirEd wEeK..
well well.. it has been a busy n tired week for me.. that explains the reason why i haven't been updating.. its working all the way from wed to sun.. let me us touch on the more significant ones.. on friday (9th jan), i freaking reported to work at 3pm.. for some cheapo singtel function.. did opening as i'm the only velvet resident.. as usual i'm excited for that day cos at night ARMIN VAN BUUREN is coming to spin.. =) but i can't party cos i'm not allowed!!!!!! so was damn busy throughtout the night.. all the way till almost 5am.. ran over to bar 2 so i can hear him spin n alsso take a peekture with him.. but their own photographer said can't take with him when he is spinning.. so i waited.. but it feels weird standing there n not working so hop off to supper point to wait.. he spins damn good lahz.. can't help shuffling a lil.. =) went back when i start to hear peepos shouting "one more, one more, armin, armin..".. but he can't b seen at the DJ console.. so went over to the smoking deck.. n waited.. so when i saw him, i don't know where the hell i get the courage to actually talk to him.. i said "eh, do you mind if i take a picture with you..?" n guess what armin replied.. he said sure.. i'm like freaking happy can.. here so it is.. ARMIN VAN BURREN for you.. =D
that's ARMIN n me.. =D
went for supper with JIDAN n RON.. cos i don't intend to sleep.. as i'm working at 12.30pm on sat.. but till bout 8am, i can't tahan anymore.. cabbed home n napped for about an hour.. met SOPHIA at the control station.. we are working for some angpows givaway.. we looked like zombies can.. so chatted while we worked.. n i find her a really nice person.. =) after the angpows thingy, JUNREN send us for dinner.. his treat.. ate damn full lahz.. after which send us to work.. thanks eh.. =) i'm like so sleepy till i almost fell asleep at the bar can.. my regulars are like laughing at me lorz.. so used my break to sleep at the locker room.. in the end, we are allowed to go back at 1.30am cos there are not much customers.. intended to go home.. but colleagues jio go ST. JAMES POWER STATION.. can't resist the temptation.. so i went with my zombie look.. shuffle a lil here n there.. n supper aftermath.. slept a lil n worked at 1pm again.. this time round with my dearest JOAN cos SOPHIA reported sick.. we laughed n chatted.. so time seemed to pass very fast.. after work, i went shopping with the rest n spent loads of moolas.. =(
well.. for yesterday, i spend my day sleeping, eating n watching dvd.. a typical lazy day for me.. oh ya.. did i mention i got my belly piercing on tues le.. so happy lahz.. here it is.. a bit fat lahz.. cos jus finished eating..
the belly piercing.. =) painful but endurable.. a new start for me.. =)
later, i'm gonna meet CHERYL n JING JING.. going MALAYSIA for some cheapo stuff.. that's bout all.. tataz.. =)
*i've learnt that not everyone can b trusted.. everyone is wearing a mask.. fakeness is all around me..*
*somehow or rather, i still miss YOU*..*
Labels: tireness
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
..a yEaR oLdEr, a nEw staRt..
okays.. i know its starting to grow moulds again.. let me start eleborating.. shall skip photos cos i'm lazy..
2nd Jan 2009
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY lahz.. hmmm.. rotted at home.. dressed up n headed out to JURONG POINT CHAPTER 2 to get my hair cut.. i was late as usual.. they are actually closing.. luckily my hairdresser was around.. i was his last customer.. birthday girl is always lucky isn't it.. after which it was to ZOUK/PHUTURE.. =) meet up with SHU YI n walked over together.. i told her over the phone i had no birthday cake this year n she actually took the effort to get one for me despite how late it was.. so sweet of her right.. loves her man.. =D cut the cake with little peepos.. a rather low profile one.. there's SHU YI, MAVIA, JEREMY n ESH.. but of cos i saw many many peepos.. n received loads of wishes b it through sms or from all my colleagues.. its like as though the entire ZOUK COMPLEX knows its my birthday.. =) went in n order a round of drinks from RENI.. BLOW SERENA (change the concoction of BLOWER/BLOWJOB n RENI named it that) n ISLAND IN THE SUN.. not bad lahz.. went out to get APPLE LEE in.. she's like damn damn late lahz.. headed off to PHUTURE next.. danced n saw EDDIE.. was dragged back to WINEBAR n got treated to a DOUBLE FLAMING AK-47 WITH MILK.. damn!! the kick came damn fast lahz.. it was a wild n fun night.. hahahaz.. almost had a fling but...... hahahahaz.. the rest is for me to know.. XD waited for JOAN at the staff gate area for supper.. many saw that i was sober.. which was good.. its amazing i was sober after a night of drinking.. birthday girl some more.. saw HIM* too.. i was like saying hi n HE* shouted yo!.. i asked, "YOU* owe me something lorz.." n HE* replied, "i got send you lorz.." i said never receive n ask HIM* to send again.. HE* said ok n gave the ok signal too.. but...... it was pure disappointment again...... =(
3rd Jan 2009
work with a hangover.. not a very bad one.. relatively awkward experience.. we seldom talk anymore.. lesser conversations.. good also.. but still we helped each other.. some how or rather i can't resist helping HIM*.. this feeling should fade off quite fast bahz.. i did closing n damn the dj.. kept spinning.. damn the customers.. kept ordering one by one.. can't they order all at one go.. n peepos who took order also didn;t inform me what they took.. its a hard time counting n observing what was taken out lorz.. i guarrantee there's gonna b lots of wrong openings on wed.. finally finished at 5.20am.. headed off to supper with RENI, KHAI n JOYCE.. KHAI'S treat.. =) many peepos were there already.. so they went off first leaving COLIN joinning us for the chat till sun's up..
from sunday till today, i rotted at home.. breakfast with mama, shopping, reading, msging, sleeping...... nothing much.. i tried to do many things to keep my mind of YOU*.. later if nothing goes wrong i should b meeting JOAN.. hopefully i get my moolas for shopping.. n bad news.. i might not head to HONG KONG due to some reason.. =(
*its a new start for me.. i'm one year older now.. i mus think before i act.. i'll heed all the advices given by all the LISTENING EARS.. thanks for being by my side n listening to me.. you guys are all i need.. =) right now all i wanna do is.. go back to being friends n only friends with YOU*.. its hard but i believe i can do it..!! relationships are gonna come last cos i wanna concentrate on my job.. i wanna gain back the trust again.. increment n everything.. I WILL WORK HARD!! YOU* are the one n only person i accidentally made a confession to.. i didn't want it to happen.. it spoils our friendship.. but i believe we both are doing a great job pretending nothing had happened.. which is the best for now.. i admit i still miss YOU*.. but it'll go off eventually.. my birthday shall b the last day i receive disappointment from YOU*......*
*可以吗, 让我和你对调..
希望换成你爱我爱的快要疯掉..
知道吗, 你对我多重要..
我不要别人温柔的怀抱..
我不要听不见你的心跳..
连我熟悉的味道, 再也闻不到..
我只要你爱我一次就好..
从前亲密的暗号, 多想再次亲耳听到..
让我暂时的依靠, 那是份张止痛药.. 很快会失效..
你只要再哄我一次就好.. 让我可以很骄傲..
记住我拥有过的好..
我想记住在你怀里的微笑......
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*我可以勇敢的爱, 爱我, 就带我走......
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Labels: a new start, one year older
Friday, January 02, 2009
..MY BIRTHDAY!!..
i still can't fall asleep.. mayb its due to having too many things in my mind.. =( i'm feeling upset.. even though its my birthday.. somehow or rather, its my worst birthday ever......
came back bout 2hrs ago.. met up with RENI, SHAWN, JUN REN, EDWYEN, CHERYL n ASH for SEOUL GARDEN at TAKASHIMAYA jus now.. part of a farewell dinner for RENI.. its kinda sad though.. seeing fun peepo leaving.. afterwhich, met up with KHAI n MYRA n headed to CINELEISURE n BALCONY to chill.. no movies to watch anyway.. saw SOPHIA n WESLEY too.. chatted n chatted.. n don't know what happened we went to MUSTAFA in the end to walk around.. dim sum aftermath n home.. chatted with SHAWN too.. thanks to all the nicey peepos who wished me jus now.. all appreciated.. =)
went to MALAYSIA on tues.. it was a pleasant trip at first.. peepos present were: CHERYL, JING JING, ALLEN, COLIN, YONG CHUN, JOYCE, RONG AN, ASH, KHAI, MYRA n FAIZUL.. some stuff happened.. more to my fault.. this is the only time i do not wish to write out what happened.. i jus regretted.. i'll not drink when im not in a good mood next time.. wrong things came out from me at the wrong place n time to the wrong peepos.. i'm sorry if i've created trouble.. n thanks to KHAI, MYRA n YONG CHUN for staying by my side all the while.. its was greatly appreaciated..
n to YOU*.. thanks for all the unknown concerns or what-so-evers YOU'VE* given to me.. lil gestures from YOU* is enough to make me go soft.. i'm jus very upset when things happened, it wasn't YOU* by my side to talk to me.. its not an obligation i know.. but still.. it would b nice if we could jus talk n sort everything out.. n not saying YOU* were scare.. i'm not the type who will stick to YOU*.. we are still friends.. but pretending is the hardest thing to do in my life ever.. pretending as though nothing has happened is killing me.. i'm afraid i might break down anytime.. if YOU* are scare, i am worst off.. even though i somehow blurted out everything, i still know what i've said.. its still somehow a confession.. i'm still a girl.. if only there's something bad to remind me of YOU* so i could jus HATE YOU*...... its my birthday today.. n i receive no wishes even thorugh sms from YOU*.. thinking back bout the effort i put in 3 weeks back for YOUR* birthday looking around for a nice present, a nice card to write n wishing YOU* at 12plus am once the clock strikes 12am when i'm at work.. it was all optional.. all out of my own heart but still i was truely disappointed.. a simple birthday wish wouldn't kill.. it was indeed utter disappointment...... =(
*worst birthday ever but still HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF..*
*its every little thing YOU* do that makes me fall in love with YOU*......*
Labels: my birthday